As my friend said the cob webs are getting thick. I could not agree more as she is a person of true wisdom.
I have been up and down as I try to deal with life. i am happy, sad, frustrated, down right angry, but I have made it threw feeling very good about myself. Who would have thought it was possible.
One problem I seem to face on a regular basis is a stagnant outlook on new things. Getting caught in a rut as they say, and it is a pattern which needs to be broken. I am the only one who can do this.
I have so many hobbies and activities that I should be busy all the time, but instead I plop myself in my chair and do nothing. I call this lazy and I can be very lazy. Just something I need to work on. I will be out photographing very soon as the air is getting warmer and the birds are singing.
All in all I feel great about life and people. I have discovered I love to talk to people from all walks of life.
The internet has allowed me to meet so many wonderful people and I look forward to seeing them and having some laughs.
But I have found along with this type of activity we also need to go out and spend time with real humans, live and in person. Our social out look cannot be based on images completely. I don't want to lose the form of communication which develops threw human contact.
Wow I am all over the place here, which does not surprise me as I have lots I have not said lately.
So for now I would like tp welcome all my freinds back to my site and I look forward to reading all about your adventures as well.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Monday, August 27, 2007
THOUGHTS OF LIFE
In the ever-expanding world of suspended thinking this question possessed my humble mind. How do we balance life, love, family, work, finances, and leisure but still have a relationship with God.
Pressure is put on us everyday in most all these areas. It becomes a tangled web for me and I easily loose sight of what is important to me. Confusion has grown to a magnitude as it over takes all my thinking.
I am so lost in life right now I cannot see my next step. I wander around some days oblivious to the surroundings, which cradle security and some kind of stability.
Balance in life is so important I feel, as it acts as an organizer. Priorities must be in order and well understood before we can achieve balance. The carnal mind wants what it wants and becomes a very powerful force in a daily basis. Our conscience rebels and tries to put this carnal thinking into place. A war breaks out and creates havoc in my life.
Restlessness supersedes and the order of balance is all messed up. Knowing what is right and wrong becomes a distraction. A piece of abstract art is created and its got my name on it for its title.
I have talked to God about this and I still feel so unbalanced in all the different categories. My priorities have become blurred.
I am talking in circles here I know but some time spelling them out can help create a new map and direction of where you should be.
Life has become really confusing to me as of late. Nothing is really making much sense. My mind has been overloaded as it feels it is breaking under the stress.
I have been here before and have found a way out. I have landed on my feet before and found redirection. So I stive to reach that next step still in tact.
Have a great day and thanks for reading.
Friday, August 24, 2007
Mind Body and Soul
The word "Zen" is described by
Us North Americans love to twist words around to fit our purpose and as you can see I am no different. So lately my Zen has been way out of whack. Why I am not real sure but I can feel a separation some days.
A very weird feeling as I am sure we have all had this feeling. My body does not seem to be in sync with my mind, and my soul gets dragged down from it. It is very disheartening when you do not feel whole on a day to day basis. It becomes impossible to create a level playing field where emotions are concerned.
I know I am going in circles here but these are real feelings to me. My mind is going one way based upon a thought and my body wants to go another way. When this happens my soul which controls all emotions has been confused much like when you give a computer two commands. It does not know which one to follow. It may pick one but then the other is only tagging along and it is not happy.
This has been happening a lot lately and it is taking its toll. It makes me want to just crawl back into bed and get up again and try it all over. In the real world it is not possible so I find a way to deal with it.
It probably has a lot to do with my head injury combined with the weather and work schedule. The cure for all this, well it is easy “Vacation”
Yes I need to get away to somewhere which will revitalize my “Zen”
Those of you who know me know a trip to
Life can be so confusing and boring at times. At times it can be so great much like an exciting movie which sends chills up your spine.
For me right now I am just plugging away with life. It is not that bad even though I sound real depressed I really am not. I think I am just in need of some time away.
I just wanted to get this off my chest and I thank you for reading.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
BEEN SO LONG
Hi everyone it has been way to long. My sabbatical is over and I am anxious to get blogging again. Sometimes a break is what is needed to clear your mind and send you in a new direction.
My life has been a roller coaster of sorts a lot of good and some bad. This summer has been a very busy one. My dear friend was down for her recording session which was way too much fun. Our band played a small show and it was a huge rush for me.
My job has been insanely busy for the summer but it has been good for the most part. I am into using Alouette products. "Don't laugh" they are awesome products and no not the make up but the hydrating mist. I went to a party a few weeks ago " quit laughing" it was my duaghters party and I had so much fun. Bought my wife a pile of stuff for her birthday. And I got invited to another party so I went "you still laughing" and I came up with this awesome idea to have my own party. "Quit snorting from laughing"
Here is my plan I am having a beer and wing night for the guys as well as an Alouette party two weeks before Christmas. The guys can get their wives or girl friends something nice for a gift. There will be free gift wrapping. and I even had some women offer to be our models, to demonstrate some of the make up and skin products'
"Awesome idea right", "Who's laughing now" " Oh it's still you" but you wait and see it will be a big hit.
Well I will keep this short and sweet and I will be making regular stops to update. Nice to see you all again and thanks for reading
My life has been a roller coaster of sorts a lot of good and some bad. This summer has been a very busy one. My dear friend was down for her recording session which was way too much fun. Our band played a small show and it was a huge rush for me.
My job has been insanely busy for the summer but it has been good for the most part. I am into using Alouette products. "Don't laugh" they are awesome products and no not the make up but the hydrating mist. I went to a party a few weeks ago " quit laughing" it was my duaghters party and I had so much fun. Bought my wife a pile of stuff for her birthday. And I got invited to another party so I went "you still laughing" and I came up with this awesome idea to have my own party. "Quit snorting from laughing"
Here is my plan I am having a beer and wing night for the guys as well as an Alouette party two weeks before Christmas. The guys can get their wives or girl friends something nice for a gift. There will be free gift wrapping. and I even had some women offer to be our models, to demonstrate some of the make up and skin products'
"Awesome idea right", "Who's laughing now" " Oh it's still you" but you wait and see it will be a big hit.
Well I will keep this short and sweet and I will be making regular stops to update. Nice to see you all again and thanks for reading
Sunday, June 24, 2007
JUST PLAYING CATCH UP
Hi Blogger friends It has been a while since we have caught up. I still am taking some time off but this time I did not erase the whole blog. I guess I learned my lesson the first time.
I have been working very hard lately on a job which is way over budget and time. It has been so frustrating for me. It should be completed tomorrow with a little bit of luck.
My niece had some very complicated back surgery this past week. So far things are good, but only time will tell. I hope she is ok, I really worry about her sometimes. She is a sweetheart who has been threw so much in the last few years. I love her dearly.
I have one more week to work and I have a week off. We will be working on a new CD for my very talented friend. I know it will be magnificent.
Ever notice how guys are such jerks when it comes to dealing with emotions. They can't do certain things in front of the guys. They have to be tough and act like men or so that is the impression. Well I found out Saturday morning I am no different. I was with my buddy and I felt like I could cry or at least I had tears starting to form. I had to fight them off because guys just don't cry. I kind of became internally emotional and it was hard to hide the tears. We are such idiots sometimes when dealing with sad or emotional moments. Why can't we just be human in front of people and deal with it and not feel we need to hide such human feelings.
We went to see the band The Fray on Friday night. You may have heard some of their music on Grey's Anatomy or several other tv shows. They were amazing and we enjoyed them a great deal.
My Mom turned 75 today. She could easily pass for 55 and she knows it. Don't you hate when that happens. She is an amazing mom and I wish her all the best.
That is about all I got tonight so have a great week and thanks for reading
I have been working very hard lately on a job which is way over budget and time. It has been so frustrating for me. It should be completed tomorrow with a little bit of luck.
My niece had some very complicated back surgery this past week. So far things are good, but only time will tell. I hope she is ok, I really worry about her sometimes. She is a sweetheart who has been threw so much in the last few years. I love her dearly.
I have one more week to work and I have a week off. We will be working on a new CD for my very talented friend. I know it will be magnificent.
Ever notice how guys are such jerks when it comes to dealing with emotions. They can't do certain things in front of the guys. They have to be tough and act like men or so that is the impression. Well I found out Saturday morning I am no different. I was with my buddy and I felt like I could cry or at least I had tears starting to form. I had to fight them off because guys just don't cry. I kind of became internally emotional and it was hard to hide the tears. We are such idiots sometimes when dealing with sad or emotional moments. Why can't we just be human in front of people and deal with it and not feel we need to hide such human feelings.
We went to see the band The Fray on Friday night. You may have heard some of their music on Grey's Anatomy or several other tv shows. They were amazing and we enjoyed them a great deal.
My Mom turned 75 today. She could easily pass for 55 and she knows it. Don't you hate when that happens. She is an amazing mom and I wish her all the best.
That is about all I got tonight so have a great week and thanks for reading
Saturday, June 9, 2007
THE REVOLVING WORLD
In this ever revolving world of emotions there are so many ups and downs to the cycle. The highs are memorable and the downs are much more memorable mainly because they leave it's mark on your memory for ever.
What am I talking about well it is our kids. One of the bad things about having kids is they are a package deal. You begin to realize this when they become teenagers and you see the many lows they bestow up on you. There is no fine print in the owners manual when they are delivered and you set out to raise them.
There should be an owners manual with these kids. My kids are putting so much strain on us right now. To many bad periods are overshadowing the good times.
At one point they make you so proud you just cannot contain it and then these times of tribulation you just stand with no idea how to handle any of this. Friday was a very hard day were my kids are concerned. You get so angry because of their behavior but really what can you do. You beat them with in inches of their life but what good would that do and besides that is just not me.
I have come to the realization being a parent is much like being a foreman on the job. You are in charge of your workers and you call the shots but if one of the workers wants to use his brain and work out a way to make the job easier and safer you let him roll with it. You want to be friends with them but you cannot be a foreman and a friend at the same time. After hours you can hang out some but your roll has to be defined.
So I have to be the bad guy where my kids are concerned, and I cannot be a buddy at the same time. I have to enforce the rules and be hated for it. Its a thankless job sometimes and it is not fun. I have been called everything under the sun lately from one of my kids. I am tired and just plain fed up with the whole situation.
I laid in bed last night thinking about things and it really depresses me to think my own flesh and blood hate me so much. There was a time when I was very proud of him and that gets distorted during these times. He is growing up and struggling to be independent but has no clue how to do it. I understand some what were he is coming from but must learn abusing the ones who can help him the most are not the ones you should hate the most.
All of this takes its toll on our emotions as the cycle keeps on going. We have been threw this before but we are at the age where we just want to relax and be happy but oh no it is not going to happen yet. Even when the move out their problems some how become yours also. Its a crazy circle.
But like I said they are a package deal, and we love them anyways and are always here when the need us.
Have a great day and thanks for reading
What am I talking about well it is our kids. One of the bad things about having kids is they are a package deal. You begin to realize this when they become teenagers and you see the many lows they bestow up on you. There is no fine print in the owners manual when they are delivered and you set out to raise them.
There should be an owners manual with these kids. My kids are putting so much strain on us right now. To many bad periods are overshadowing the good times.
At one point they make you so proud you just cannot contain it and then these times of tribulation you just stand with no idea how to handle any of this. Friday was a very hard day were my kids are concerned. You get so angry because of their behavior but really what can you do. You beat them with in inches of their life but what good would that do and besides that is just not me.
I have come to the realization being a parent is much like being a foreman on the job. You are in charge of your workers and you call the shots but if one of the workers wants to use his brain and work out a way to make the job easier and safer you let him roll with it. You want to be friends with them but you cannot be a foreman and a friend at the same time. After hours you can hang out some but your roll has to be defined.
So I have to be the bad guy where my kids are concerned, and I cannot be a buddy at the same time. I have to enforce the rules and be hated for it. Its a thankless job sometimes and it is not fun. I have been called everything under the sun lately from one of my kids. I am tired and just plain fed up with the whole situation.
I laid in bed last night thinking about things and it really depresses me to think my own flesh and blood hate me so much. There was a time when I was very proud of him and that gets distorted during these times. He is growing up and struggling to be independent but has no clue how to do it. I understand some what were he is coming from but must learn abusing the ones who can help him the most are not the ones you should hate the most.
All of this takes its toll on our emotions as the cycle keeps on going. We have been threw this before but we are at the age where we just want to relax and be happy but oh no it is not going to happen yet. Even when the move out their problems some how become yours also. Its a crazy circle.
But like I said they are a package deal, and we love them anyways and are always here when the need us.
Have a great day and thanks for reading
Saturday, June 2, 2007
THE AXE CHALLENGE
I finally did it, I took the Axe challenge. You know the one where the guy is wearing the body spray Axe and thousands of women run to him. Or the teacher who is teaching English classes and the guy walks in and she goes "Ohh a waw cha wa" or something like that. Well I bought some today because I need a lift and thousands of females chasing me sounded like fun.
Come to find out no females chased me, well I can't really say that I did have two female cats which loved me after I took my shower. They actually wanted to sit on my lap and sniff me. Just my luck now the cats like me. oh well maybe I need to find another challenge.
Very warm and muggy today, but I love this weather. I hate being cold, hot I can handle cold no. One of the reasons I don't live in Winnipeg. But I have heard threw the grapevine if I wore my Axe out their I would have much different results.
Still working on my article for Associated Content. I had one written but was not happy with it so I started to wright another. I will be happy with it sooner or later, no real hurry, when it is complete I will submit it.
Work has been hectic as usual. I think I need to find something much easier on the body and brain. I feel much to old to be competing at this kind of pace. It is definitely a younger mans game. Us older guys should be training the young guys coming up, but if life were like that then it would be perfect. It is far from perfect.
We went to Edens dance recital last night and we were so proud of our little angel as she was dancing her heart out. She did really good and it looked like she enjoyed herself. My buddy's daughter who is an assistant teacher at the dance school was also in the program. This !9 year old girl can certainly dance, she made me very proud also.
Thank you for all your support on my last post it meant a lot to me. Amazing how things we cannot control bother us. I guess it is a part of life in some way
Have a great night and thanks for reading.
Come to find out no females chased me, well I can't really say that I did have two female cats which loved me after I took my shower. They actually wanted to sit on my lap and sniff me. Just my luck now the cats like me. oh well maybe I need to find another challenge.
Very warm and muggy today, but I love this weather. I hate being cold, hot I can handle cold no. One of the reasons I don't live in Winnipeg. But I have heard threw the grapevine if I wore my Axe out their I would have much different results.
Still working on my article for Associated Content. I had one written but was not happy with it so I started to wright another. I will be happy with it sooner or later, no real hurry, when it is complete I will submit it.
Work has been hectic as usual. I think I need to find something much easier on the body and brain. I feel much to old to be competing at this kind of pace. It is definitely a younger mans game. Us older guys should be training the young guys coming up, but if life were like that then it would be perfect. It is far from perfect.
We went to Edens dance recital last night and we were so proud of our little angel as she was dancing her heart out. She did really good and it looked like she enjoyed herself. My buddy's daughter who is an assistant teacher at the dance school was also in the program. This !9 year old girl can certainly dance, she made me very proud also.
Thank you for all your support on my last post it meant a lot to me. Amazing how things we cannot control bother us. I guess it is a part of life in some way
Have a great night and thanks for reading.
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