Random Thinking Tonight

The one thing that really sucks in life is there are times when you are completely helpless in some situations. I feel this way as I am dealing with some information I learned this weekend. I can't go into details but this news absolutely breaks my heart in the worst way.

Why do we as people constantly feel the need to hurt each other. It is ridiculous in the most honest level. We raise our kids to become healthy, strong, independent as well as being happy with decisions. We cannot protect them all the time. We have to let them go free and learn life can be as cruel as cruel can be. Sitting back watching all of this happen is slowly killing us inside.

In other areas I have been doing some renovating in the basement as I try to prepare a spare bedroom. My neighbor thinks it is for me when I'm in the dog house. I swear it is not, but it will have a comfy bed in it if ever needed.

I just can't seem to find time to blog lately, I want to but something else always gets in the way. My life has been much to busy for me to actually enjoy it. Need to find a way to slow it down considerably.

I am working on a new article to submit to Associated Content. It will be called A Gem In The Rough and it is about a century home in Welland which has been restored to it's original beauty. It is an amazing piece of work. I just hope I can put together a good article which will get published.

Tomorrow night I am going to an Alouette party, I so need to get my night time mask replaced (just kidding ) really lol

I don't really have much tonight just wanted to stop by and say hi to all of you who read this.

have a great night and thanks for reading

SUCH A BAD BLOGGER

Yep that's me Mr bad blogger. it has been so long since I bloged, but I have million excuses, Of course I do I am "bad blogger" This should be my new handle.

The sun has been shining and the weather pretty good so I have been spending some time out side. It is nice to see all of you again I must say

I don't really have anything cool to say so I will update what I have been doing. Well work has been a high stress area in my life. But it will not always be that way, just the last month or so has been pressure filled.

My co-worker has been sick and I missed her humour the last few days, she keeps me thinking in the proper direction usually. Hope she is feeling better soon. Sounded kind of fishy though getting sick two days before a long weekend, Wish I would have thought of that.

Today I did something I never thought I would. Actually completely not my idea but I just did what I was asked. I painted orange on my basement bedroom wall. "Stop laughing Bonnie" it's not funny. Jo Anne picked out all the colours and I had no choice except say wow honey I love the colours you picked very nice. (husband talk, i know it well)

I have joined a writing site where I have been posting poems. I have been right into writing them lately as they seem to flow easily. it has been fun and I have started to write articles for a sight called Associated Content. I would like to do some writing for them, I will submit them when I think they are ready and hopefully I can get a few published. The writing site is http://www.writesight.com.

I will post a poem I wrote this week. Have a great long weekend and I will try not to ignore blog spot again. Thanks for reading

PASSION IN PARADISE

Dancing in the dream you cast

I fall victim to caressing visions locked inside of me

I purge all negative thoughts

As my hand reaches out and catches the love intertwined in fingers

A glance of playfulness you turn and run

I let you leave my presence so I may find you and hold you forever

The ocean breeze whisks across your beauty

As your scent fill my senses with the true taste of content

The moon shines above the water

As the reflection doubles with the brilliance of your blue eyes

I am caught off guard by the display

But not surprised that nature notices all of it’s perfections

I softly lay you down on the sand

As I tower above you and place my lips upon yours

I hold you never wanting to let go

As this magical moment must be remembered for all eternity

Palm trees reach for the sky as if shelter

As we join our souls in passion amidst this paradise

Awaiting for the sun’s return

The stillness of the night cradles lasting meditations

The Island of love surrendered all it’s power

We walk on her as if a sacred land only devoted to us

Memories never fade if they are real

And I will remember this moment till death do us part

ADVERSITY

This week has literally been a nightmare at work as adversity has struck me in the face once again. I came home Friday completely stressed over all the events which had taken place. I lay in bed last night thinking about this and I came to a conclusion. This is a test of my manhood and my beliefs. Up to now I think I have miserably failed this test and I came to a conclusion which I have wrote down in the form a loosely written poem.

I thought I would share it with you and let out my aggressions and let the light of a new found attitude walk with me and pass off the anger to someone who can deal with it better than me.

ADVERSITY

I struggle with the demonic face of adversity
It rears its devilish looks and stare’s me down
Eye to eye I contemplate the reverent social consequence
And the impression which myself will be perceived

I turn blue in the face as I speak of mutual resolve
Walking into walls within this endeavor
As my voice is unheard and much to soft to be
taken to a level of seriousness

The humiliating words of chastising slow my ego
Crumbling under the weight is left a skeleton
of disfigured proportions
I glance back into those incubus eyes
As I turn and walk away

Creating my own resolve I distance myself
from the harrowing light of darkness
I seek a proportional altitude which serves
as a safe plateau from such discontent

I find no outward answers but only a peaceful
resolution within my own sacred mind
Restricted within these boundaries
I pace forward to new levels of manhood

No internal games will be played within this mind
Observation is detrimental if it seeps into your soul
Individual thought’s control my actions
As I turn away from the darkness, as the acceptance of true light
fills my soul with a comforting hand

I grasp that hand and walk to a distant land
Far from the evil which has tried to
turn this body into it’s own
Don’t look back, and never seek combat
with the prince of darkness alone

Have a great day and thanks for reading

YOUTHFULNESS RESTORED

You have heard of the fountain of youth, you know the natural spring which revitalizes your body and you become young again. Well I have found it, and actually I have had it for four and a half years now. I never realized it was right at my finger tips. And the best part it was right in my backyard well down the street a little ways but it was here all along.

I should probably retract a little to explain this. Well those who read my blog know I have bouts of feeling old and have no energy. Life becomes a struggle and I feel very alone in my old decrepit body. Well that was a few months ago but now I have been given a new lease on life. I have found the proof I am still young. That's right back to the fountain of youth.

You may ask where is this fountain of youth and how can I get in on it. The answer is you can't as it was meant for only a few of us, today anyways. Today was grandparents day mt my granddaughters school and I was invited. I had a slow schedule so I opted out of work at noon to attend.

Well as I got there it did not take me long to realize all these people here were grandparents. Duh you might say it was grandparents day but you are missing my point. Most of them were old enough to be my grandparents. So you know where I am headed with this, I suddenly felt very young and revitalized in my way of thinking. I am still young even though I have grandchildren. I am not retired, I am not gray, I do not have the sagging cheeks, I have all my teeth, I do not need a walker to get around. Well lets just say I am way to young for all those things and I saw all those today at grandparents day.

So now that I am a spring chicken I feel like dancing around the neighborhood, and was getting my dancing shoe's on but JoAnne gave me that look, you know the one " if you do this you will never be associated with any of us again" OK you know the look, so I refrained from the dancing. But man do i feel great" And very young" Yee Haw

I have met other very young grandparents, like "Young Mom" you know who you are. I was just so happy to find out I was actually one of them. Yee Haw again.

On other fronts our band is preparing to play our yearly show at the July Stanley Cup party which is a yearly event among several friends. We have maybe twenty to thirty songs to choose from. I have to admit we are not very good, we have a ton of fun though and that is what it is all about for us. But this year our band well be rocking and sounding great, not because we got any better but because my son Darren will be joining us on stage this year. he is an awesome guitar player and even though we are not in his league musically he was thrill at the opportunity to play with the "YOUNG" old guys for a night. It will be a blast.

Before I leave you with my "Youthful Words" (come on I'm excited, give me a break) I want to say congratulations to "Young Mom's Daughter" as she took possession of her new home this week. She has not moved into it yet but I have heard threw the grapevine there will be orange on some of the walls. " I know she is new, she will figure out orange should never be part of a house" Just kidding ya, wish I were there to help paint. But I am in when the cupboards need replacing.

Thanks for reading and have a great night.