Mind Body and Soul

The word "Zen" is described by Oxford as a form of Buddhism emphasizing the value of meditation and intuition. Well I am not a Buddha and I do not follow their teachings but I like the word Zen. To me it describes a togetherness of mind body & soul within our selves.

Us North Americans love to twist words around to fit our purpose and as you can see I am no different. So lately my Zen has been way out of whack. Why I am not real sure but I can feel a separation some days.

A very weird feeling as I am sure we have all had this feeling. My body does not seem to be in sync with my mind, and my soul gets dragged down from it. It is very disheartening when you do not feel whole on a day to day basis. It becomes impossible to create a level playing field where emotions are concerned.

I know I am going in circles here but these are real feelings to me. My mind is going one way based upon a thought and my body wants to go another way. When this happens my soul which controls all emotions has been confused much like when you give a computer two commands. It does not know which one to follow. It may pick one but then the other is only tagging along and it is not happy.

This has been happening a lot lately and it is taking its toll. It makes me want to just crawl back into bed and get up again and try it all over. In the real world it is not possible so I find a way to deal with it.

It probably has a lot to do with my head injury combined with the weather and work schedule. The cure for all this, well it is easy “Vacation”

Yes I need to get away to somewhere which will revitalize my “Zen”

Those of you who know me know a trip to Hawaii would do the trick, but since this is not possible I would love to go to a place alone with my pen and paper, my guitar and my camera. A week would be great, a vacation with only my self and my thoughts. I could right about everything I see and feel. I could photograph all images which capture my imagination. I could think of some people who I would love to spend time with but this is not possible either for what ever reason.

Life can be so confusing and boring at times. At times it can be so great much like an exciting movie which sends chills up your spine.

For me right now I am just plugging away with life. It is not that bad even though I sound real depressed I really am not. I think I am just in need of some time away.

I just wanted to get this off my chest and I thank you for reading.