ONE SHOT OF ADRENALINE PLEASE

Squandered opportunities leave us scrambling for some form of higher ground. A place elevated high enough in which we can rest our tired feet.

We search for that next fix. We need to shoot up our bodies with adrenaline as we indulge our own ego's. Excitement dwindles away at times and we need it back. Live becomes boring and stagnant and very fruitless. How do you combat this, do you dive right in the next opportunity and hope it fulfills or do you hold out for that next chance to spread our wings and fly away.

I am bored with my life lately not depressed as there is a huge difference just surviving feeling like excitement is passing me by. Such a weird feeling and it has been haunting me for some time.

I want to do something crazy and totally out of context with myself. I have no idea what and if I could ever do something which may seem stupid at the time. It's just a thought I have at this moment and it is what I really want to do.

Boredom is hard to fight and is a direct result of very poor personal planning within ourselves. I am not good with planning things when they pertain to me. I need to feel alive lately as I feel dull and boring. I have so many things planned this summer and I am so looking forward to them but right now ho hum!

I had some very sad news this week which has left me searching for some answers as the news caught me totally off guard. Divorce is a terrible thing when it happens to people you love and care very much for. When a couple you thought were doing great comes and tells you it's over it can be very disturbing. I did not see it coming and it is really sending my mind into a spin. I hope they can work it out but I have been told they will not. It is really sad and I will pray for this couple as I love them both very much.

My leafs are out of the playoffs again which is really no surprise to me as I have braced myself for the event. Oh well it's only a game and there is always next year and the next year and the next year......... lol.

I have opened up an ebay account finally. I have wanted to do this for sometime but never did. Man you can buy all sorts of crap on there. Not that I have but could if wanted. It boggles my mind when I go threw the different categories and look at what people have for sale. You name it you can buy it. Too much really.

I was really amazed at how you can buy tickets for concerts. I have definitely been out of the ticket buying loop lately as I found out you can buy tickets and they e-mail you the ticket and you just have to print them on your computer. No more standing in line for three days as we used to have to do in the seventies. I was completely overwhelmed when I purchased tickets this week. I actually had a smile on my face as I had the tickets within minutes of finding them. So fast that it scared me. I must have done something wrong but nope that is the way it worked. I mentioned this to one of my boys and he looked at me as if I was from another planet, as he calmly told me he has been doing this for a few years now. I just sighed as I felt like a moron thinking I had stumbled onto the next great invention of the century.

Thats all I got today so have a great evening and thanks for reading.