JUST PLAYING CATCH UP

Hi Blogger friends It has been a while since we have caught up. I still am taking some time off but this time I did not erase the whole blog. I guess I learned my lesson the first time.

I have been working very hard lately on a job which is way over budget and time. It has been so frustrating for me. It should be completed tomorrow with a little bit of luck.

My niece had some very complicated back surgery this past week. So far things are good, but only time will tell. I hope she is ok, I really worry about her sometimes. She is a sweetheart who has been threw so much in the last few years. I love her dearly.

I have one more week to work and I have a week off. We will be working on a new CD for my very talented friend. I know it will be magnificent.

Ever notice how guys are such jerks when it comes to dealing with emotions. They can't do certain things in front of the guys. They have to be tough and act like men or so that is the impression. Well I found out Saturday morning I am no different. I was with my buddy and I felt like I could cry or at least I had tears starting to form. I had to fight them off because guys just don't cry. I kind of became internally emotional and it was hard to hide the tears. We are such idiots sometimes when dealing with sad or emotional moments. Why can't we just be human in front of people and deal with it and not feel we need to hide such human feelings.

We went to see the band The Fray on Friday night. You may have heard some of their music on Grey's Anatomy or several other tv shows. They were amazing and we enjoyed them a great deal.

My Mom turned 75 today. She could easily pass for 55 and she knows it. Don't you hate when that happens. She is an amazing mom and I wish her all the best.

That is about all I got tonight so have a great week and thanks for reading

THE REVOLVING WORLD

In this ever revolving world of emotions there are so many ups and downs to the cycle. The highs are memorable and the downs are much more memorable mainly because they leave it's mark on your memory for ever.

What am I talking about well it is our kids. One of the bad things about having kids is they are a package deal. You begin to realize this when they become teenagers and you see the many lows they bestow up on you. There is no fine print in the owners manual when they are delivered and you set out to raise them.

There should be an owners manual with these kids. My kids are putting so much strain on us right now. To many bad periods are overshadowing the good times.

At one point they make you so proud you just cannot contain it and then these times of tribulation you just stand with no idea how to handle any of this. Friday was a very hard day were my kids are concerned. You get so angry because of their behavior but really what can you do. You beat them with in inches of their life but what good would that do and besides that is just not me.

I have come to the realization being a parent is much like being a foreman on the job. You are in charge of your workers and you call the shots but if one of the workers wants to use his brain and work out a way to make the job easier and safer you let him roll with it. You want to be friends with them but you cannot be a foreman and a friend at the same time. After hours you can hang out some but your roll has to be defined.

So I have to be the bad guy where my kids are concerned, and I cannot be a buddy at the same time. I have to enforce the rules and be hated for it. Its a thankless job sometimes and it is not fun. I have been called everything under the sun lately from one of my kids. I am tired and just plain fed up with the whole situation.

I laid in bed last night thinking about things and it really depresses me to think my own flesh and blood hate me so much. There was a time when I was very proud of him and that gets distorted during these times. He is growing up and struggling to be independent but has no clue how to do it. I understand some what were he is coming from but must learn abusing the ones who can help him the most are not the ones you should hate the most.

All of this takes its toll on our emotions as the cycle keeps on going. We have been threw this before but we are at the age where we just want to relax and be happy but oh no it is not going to happen yet. Even when the move out their problems some how become yours also. Its a crazy circle.

But like I said they are a package deal, and we love them anyways and are always here when the need us.

Have a great day and thanks for reading

THE AXE CHALLENGE

I finally did it, I took the Axe challenge. You know the one where the guy is wearing the body spray Axe and thousands of women run to him. Or the teacher who is teaching English classes and the guy walks in and she goes "Ohh a waw cha wa" or something like that. Well I bought some today because I need a lift and thousands of females chasing me sounded like fun.

Come to find out no females chased me, well I can't really say that I did have two female cats which loved me after I took my shower. They actually wanted to sit on my lap and sniff me. Just my luck now the cats like me. oh well maybe I need to find another challenge.

Very warm and muggy today, but I love this weather. I hate being cold, hot I can handle cold no. One of the reasons I don't live in Winnipeg. But I have heard threw the grapevine if I wore my Axe out their I would have much different results.

Still working on my article for Associated Content. I had one written but was not happy with it so I started to wright another. I will be happy with it sooner or later, no real hurry, when it is complete I will submit it.

Work has been hectic as usual. I think I need to find something much easier on the body and brain. I feel much to old to be competing at this kind of pace. It is definitely a younger mans game. Us older guys should be training the young guys coming up, but if life were like that then it would be perfect. It is far from perfect.

We went to Edens dance recital last night and we were so proud of our little angel as she was dancing her heart out. She did really good and it looked like she enjoyed herself. My buddy's daughter who is an assistant teacher at the dance school was also in the program. This !9 year old girl can certainly dance, she made me very proud also.

Thank you for all your support on my last post it meant a lot to me. Amazing how things we cannot control bother us. I guess it is a part of life in some way

Have a great night and thanks for reading.

Random Thinking Tonight

The one thing that really sucks in life is there are times when you are completely helpless in some situations. I feel this way as I am dealing with some information I learned this weekend. I can't go into details but this news absolutely breaks my heart in the worst way.

Why do we as people constantly feel the need to hurt each other. It is ridiculous in the most honest level. We raise our kids to become healthy, strong, independent as well as being happy with decisions. We cannot protect them all the time. We have to let them go free and learn life can be as cruel as cruel can be. Sitting back watching all of this happen is slowly killing us inside.

In other areas I have been doing some renovating in the basement as I try to prepare a spare bedroom. My neighbor thinks it is for me when I'm in the dog house. I swear it is not, but it will have a comfy bed in it if ever needed.

I just can't seem to find time to blog lately, I want to but something else always gets in the way. My life has been much to busy for me to actually enjoy it. Need to find a way to slow it down considerably.

I am working on a new article to submit to Associated Content. It will be called A Gem In The Rough and it is about a century home in Welland which has been restored to it's original beauty. It is an amazing piece of work. I just hope I can put together a good article which will get published.

Tomorrow night I am going to an Alouette party, I so need to get my night time mask replaced (just kidding ) really lol

I don't really have much tonight just wanted to stop by and say hi to all of you who read this.

have a great night and thanks for reading

SUCH A BAD BLOGGER

Yep that's me Mr bad blogger. it has been so long since I bloged, but I have million excuses, Of course I do I am "bad blogger" This should be my new handle.

The sun has been shining and the weather pretty good so I have been spending some time out side. It is nice to see all of you again I must say

I don't really have anything cool to say so I will update what I have been doing. Well work has been a high stress area in my life. But it will not always be that way, just the last month or so has been pressure filled.

My co-worker has been sick and I missed her humour the last few days, she keeps me thinking in the proper direction usually. Hope she is feeling better soon. Sounded kind of fishy though getting sick two days before a long weekend, Wish I would have thought of that.

Today I did something I never thought I would. Actually completely not my idea but I just did what I was asked. I painted orange on my basement bedroom wall. "Stop laughing Bonnie" it's not funny. Jo Anne picked out all the colours and I had no choice except say wow honey I love the colours you picked very nice. (husband talk, i know it well)

I have joined a writing site where I have been posting poems. I have been right into writing them lately as they seem to flow easily. it has been fun and I have started to write articles for a sight called Associated Content. I would like to do some writing for them, I will submit them when I think they are ready and hopefully I can get a few published. The writing site is http://www.writesight.com.

I will post a poem I wrote this week. Have a great long weekend and I will try not to ignore blog spot again. Thanks for reading

PASSION IN PARADISE

Dancing in the dream you cast

I fall victim to caressing visions locked inside of me

I purge all negative thoughts

As my hand reaches out and catches the love intertwined in fingers

A glance of playfulness you turn and run

I let you leave my presence so I may find you and hold you forever

The ocean breeze whisks across your beauty

As your scent fill my senses with the true taste of content

The moon shines above the water

As the reflection doubles with the brilliance of your blue eyes

I am caught off guard by the display

But not surprised that nature notices all of it’s perfections

I softly lay you down on the sand

As I tower above you and place my lips upon yours

I hold you never wanting to let go

As this magical moment must be remembered for all eternity

Palm trees reach for the sky as if shelter

As we join our souls in passion amidst this paradise

Awaiting for the sun’s return

The stillness of the night cradles lasting meditations

The Island of love surrendered all it’s power

We walk on her as if a sacred land only devoted to us

Memories never fade if they are real

And I will remember this moment till death do us part

ADVERSITY

This week has literally been a nightmare at work as adversity has struck me in the face once again. I came home Friday completely stressed over all the events which had taken place. I lay in bed last night thinking about this and I came to a conclusion. This is a test of my manhood and my beliefs. Up to now I think I have miserably failed this test and I came to a conclusion which I have wrote down in the form a loosely written poem.

I thought I would share it with you and let out my aggressions and let the light of a new found attitude walk with me and pass off the anger to someone who can deal with it better than me.

ADVERSITY

I struggle with the demonic face of adversity
It rears its devilish looks and stare’s me down
Eye to eye I contemplate the reverent social consequence
And the impression which myself will be perceived

I turn blue in the face as I speak of mutual resolve
Walking into walls within this endeavor
As my voice is unheard and much to soft to be
taken to a level of seriousness

The humiliating words of chastising slow my ego
Crumbling under the weight is left a skeleton
of disfigured proportions
I glance back into those incubus eyes
As I turn and walk away

Creating my own resolve I distance myself
from the harrowing light of darkness
I seek a proportional altitude which serves
as a safe plateau from such discontent

I find no outward answers but only a peaceful
resolution within my own sacred mind
Restricted within these boundaries
I pace forward to new levels of manhood

No internal games will be played within this mind
Observation is detrimental if it seeps into your soul
Individual thought’s control my actions
As I turn away from the darkness, as the acceptance of true light
fills my soul with a comforting hand

I grasp that hand and walk to a distant land
Far from the evil which has tried to
turn this body into it’s own
Don’t look back, and never seek combat
with the prince of darkness alone

Have a great day and thanks for reading

YOUTHFULNESS RESTORED

You have heard of the fountain of youth, you know the natural spring which revitalizes your body and you become young again. Well I have found it, and actually I have had it for four and a half years now. I never realized it was right at my finger tips. And the best part it was right in my backyard well down the street a little ways but it was here all along.

I should probably retract a little to explain this. Well those who read my blog know I have bouts of feeling old and have no energy. Life becomes a struggle and I feel very alone in my old decrepit body. Well that was a few months ago but now I have been given a new lease on life. I have found the proof I am still young. That's right back to the fountain of youth.

You may ask where is this fountain of youth and how can I get in on it. The answer is you can't as it was meant for only a few of us, today anyways. Today was grandparents day mt my granddaughters school and I was invited. I had a slow schedule so I opted out of work at noon to attend.

Well as I got there it did not take me long to realize all these people here were grandparents. Duh you might say it was grandparents day but you are missing my point. Most of them were old enough to be my grandparents. So you know where I am headed with this, I suddenly felt very young and revitalized in my way of thinking. I am still young even though I have grandchildren. I am not retired, I am not gray, I do not have the sagging cheeks, I have all my teeth, I do not need a walker to get around. Well lets just say I am way to young for all those things and I saw all those today at grandparents day.

So now that I am a spring chicken I feel like dancing around the neighborhood, and was getting my dancing shoe's on but JoAnne gave me that look, you know the one " if you do this you will never be associated with any of us again" OK you know the look, so I refrained from the dancing. But man do i feel great" And very young" Yee Haw

I have met other very young grandparents, like "Young Mom" you know who you are. I was just so happy to find out I was actually one of them. Yee Haw again.

On other fronts our band is preparing to play our yearly show at the July Stanley Cup party which is a yearly event among several friends. We have maybe twenty to thirty songs to choose from. I have to admit we are not very good, we have a ton of fun though and that is what it is all about for us. But this year our band well be rocking and sounding great, not because we got any better but because my son Darren will be joining us on stage this year. he is an awesome guitar player and even though we are not in his league musically he was thrill at the opportunity to play with the "YOUNG" old guys for a night. It will be a blast.

Before I leave you with my "Youthful Words" (come on I'm excited, give me a break) I want to say congratulations to "Young Mom's Daughter" as she took possession of her new home this week. She has not moved into it yet but I have heard threw the grapevine there will be orange on some of the walls. " I know she is new, she will figure out orange should never be part of a house" Just kidding ya, wish I were there to help paint. But I am in when the cupboards need replacing.

Thanks for reading and have a great night.